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EmotionalCL
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Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 8/12/1983
Gender: Female
Interests: Driving aimlessly, eating, sleeping, watching funny things, singing and talking to myself, playing games, overthinking, rambling, etc.
Expertise: Bio. Food? Uhmmmmm...
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Member Since:
11/19/2003
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| I was hyper-happy yesterday because everything is going so well. In lab, class, friends/classmates.
I'm happy, but I'm not happy with him. Just like he would always say.
I'm happy, but it doesn't mean I'm ok with things he does in general.
Sure, it's ok right now...but overall...Fuck...I dunno. I should leave
while the gettin's good, but...dammit, THE GETTIN'S GOOD. It's a
vicious cycle.
But everything else in my life is so good...
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| I'm grateful for my brain. I'm grateful for my body. Sure, they could
be better...but I'm better off than many, and they get me what I
want--fun. I have enough intelligence to get a decent job, to get me a
place to live, food to eat, and spending money to go out to fun places.
I am reasonably healthy and strong. Decently attractive so hopefully I
will be able to attract a decently attractive mate. I really hope that
I can be a good person. I want to be more moral, and treat others
better. Higher aims than just fun and happiness. I also want to be
deeply understood and loved. I want faithful friends and a faithful
mate whose mind is like a subtle reflection of my own. I cannot tell at
all where the future will take me. Now that I've been through horrible
times, though, I am optimistic. I wish I wasn't as flawed as I am, but
I know I am forgiven.
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| I'd give up sleep for talking;
it's worth it to me, for you
You stay awake to talk to me
-you say it's worth it too
I know I've felt this way before,
when I was more naive.
Before I learned that "I love you"
can often change to "leave".
I cannot say I know you well
but wonder just the same,
since you inspire this feeling
how life since you will change.
-=incomplete=-
want to add idea:
in missing it, wasn't I just missing you?
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| I'm finally free. I can finally do what I want knowing it's not going to kill me.
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| Jason's party was fun. Glad I went...
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